but i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

it hurts to the core.

but don't take the pain away from me. don't give me comfort, not just yet.

the pain reminds me that i, at the very least, still care. despite how long it's been, how far the distance, how much we've changed. i still care. the pain reminds me that despite this brokenness, there was happiness. and that's enough for me.

perhaps this pain carries a hope. a hope that one day we'll be able to correct this mess. but now what's left is a glimmer, and if it's not to be, what am i to say?

just don't take the pain away from me. not just yet.