moulding

'God, why did you make me put this on the altar?'

To see if you were serving Me or the dream.

~

I'd much rather be friends with one who smokes, is covered with tattoos and piercings than a hypocrite.

am I literally worth your time?

Time is very valuable, I'm sure most would agree.

What if we intertwined money with time? What if we placed a tangible value per minute? Would it differ for every individual? Of course it would.

Now, what if you had to pay cold hard cash to spend time with someone? What if every person has a rate of their own for every hour you spend with them? How much, then, would you spend for an hour with your best friend? Your parents? The girl you're crushing on? The dude you just said hi to?

How much would you honestly pay to spend an hour with me? 

I swear I've never used so many question marks in a post before.

~

Able - Not Too Far

maskjʊˈlɪnɪti

If a man is ever to find out who he is and what he's here for, he has got to take that journey for himself. He has got to get his heart back.

~

construere

I am a collector. A collector of little pieces of gems that are insignificant to many, but invaluable to me.

I collect words. Words of people close to me, mere acquaintances, and even those unknown. Criticisms, encouragements, prophecies; I gather and store them in my heart.

I treasure my collection, knowing these are more than just little fragments of stones. These gemstones, are promises.

~

Death Cab for Cutie - What Sarah Said

push til you shove

'Why does God test us? To find out what is in our hearts? Absolutely not. He already knows what's hidden in our hearts. He tests us so that we might know what is in our hearts.'

~

Bethel - A Little Longer

HIS Church is 10!

And my God what an awesome day it has been. I'm feeling soooo much love from everyone, and for everyone. I love this. This feeling of unity. 

One day I will tell this to the youths, but I just want to say this right now. If you come to church hungry, thirsty for His presence, desiring for Him to move, He will satisfy you.

Because right now, I feel so satisfied by Him. All the days spent preparing for the skit and praise and worship truly paid off. Honestly, the past 2 weeks have been pretty very crappy. At home, in college, in church, even by myself. So many things have been going through my head; about props, about the p&w, about life. Can't imagine what has been going through Ken's head for the past month haha. 

But I kept pushing. I kept praying: God I want to see You move. Use us. The worship team. The youth. The whole church. I want to see salvations. Rededications. I want to see this church unite. Teach me to forgive, the same way You have forgiven me. Teach me to love, the same way You love me. 

And right now, I am so satisfied. I can't describe the feeling. I just feel so at peace. All the hours spent toiling, touching up on the technical side of things, all the sweat, the laughter, the tears, the criticisms — both constructive and destructive, the arguments, the disagreements, the hatred (cause frankly it was present), the anger.. I can truthfully tell you, it was all worth it.

I love my home church. Every bit of it. And Lord, I'm a lover of Your presence. I won't be going anywhere without You.

~

True Worshippers - Glory to Glory

This song is killer. But I honestly feel the team did way better than this version :P

it's all about You, Jesus

'The promise is nothing without Your presence!'

And Lord, that's all I want. You, Your presence, and to move under Your glory cloud. Excited for HIS Church's 10th anniversary! Souls saved and rededications please! And even more excited for what's coming up in the weeks to come!!

scars

Lord, I know You're full of grace. It's Your people who aren't.

'Sometimes, the wilderness is the best place to learn how to thirst again.'

if only you could see

I am the tingle in your spine on a cold dreary morning.

I am the faint cries of men reluctantly pulled to Hades.

I am the anger in your chest.

I am the frustrations in your heart.

I am the sights you see.

I am the sounds you hear.

I am the air you breathe.

I am the smoke that corrupts.

I am the morning dew.

I am dust.

I am here, there and everywhere.

But you fail to see me.

If only.

~

This Will Destroy You - Communal Blood

sweet like honey, bitter like gall

Too often we live off what God did in the past and drift from experiencing Him in the present. We still quote scriptures and talk a good talk, but we lack a hunger for His ways.

We quote scriptures, we talk a good talk. But all they are are just words. Sugar-coated, but formless. 

We think we're kissing God's ass. To think that He'd need it. Foolish.

~

Brooke Fraser - C.S. Lewis Song

beggar's bones

grasp, tighten, choke. watch the life drain out of your soul. hear the last wheeze of life breathe out. the last of your dreams. the last of your passion. the last of you. and what's left, is hollow. alive to society, dead inside.

dissent

I hate politics. This Selangor MB saga just makes me weary. You can't actually know what is the truth can you? I guess I never really realized that freedom of speech came hand-in-hand with freedom to spew lies. *sighs* Your Kingdom come, Your will be done.

~ Switchfoot - You

rue

the scent of your hair, touch of your skin, faint whisper of your voice, lingers and abides in my head. one last kiss. one more cigarette. one too many drinks. another night. same old, same old.

get stuck in the moment. breathe. consume. 

leave the business of regretting to tomorrow. 

~

Andrew Belle - In My Veins

calloused hearts

is there more?

beyond the fancy lighting, the intricate musicality, the complicated sound system, the jumping, the singing, the time sacrificed, the money spent, the sweat, the tears, the disagreements, the arguments, the criticisms, the scars, the relationships, the friendships, the many songs, the actions, the words.

is there more? or are we just a broken record? a jukebox stuck on repeat?

no. there must be more.

~

Jimmy Eat World - Polaris

can't come up with a title, so this'll do

I remember my mum asking me when I was seven if I wanted a younger sibling. Without much thought, I said YES. And truth be told, I still do.

I think it'd be cool to have a younger sister. Ever since I was small I wanted to be that over-protective brother that doesn't let his younger sister go to parties alone. That beats up her ex-bfs and all that hahaha. And of course, I wanted a younger sibling so that I can use him/her. It really isn't as mean as it sounds. All I want is for someone else to do my chores for me. Simple as that.

So since I have no younger sister to bully, I bully my bro instead.

I kid, I kid.

~

The Almost - Southern Weather

building up, tearing down

So how do you know him? 

Oh, we go to the same church.

Oh really? I couldn't tell..

Haha yeah he's a work in progress.

And how bout you?

So am I.

~

Bethel - You Make Me Brave