2013

As of now, it is 1. 45 in the morning of the last day of 2013.

The last day of 2013. Wow. Time sure does fly.

And what a year it has been. Phew.

So this is me, recollecting memories. Do bear with me.

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Early this year, this blog was birthed. It was meant to be a place to pen down my thoughts, my frustrations, and my jiwang-ness. Not much has changed, though I have to say I haven't been writing with much honesty. More on that some other time.

"SPM year wei." "Gee thanks, didn't know."

Ahhh spm. Marks the last year of high school (unless you decide to do stpm of course). Didn't feel the stress till very late. A little too late maybe. Anyway, I think I could say I've done my best. We'll just wait for next year.

That said, my last year of high school was fun. In class it was all about laughing like retards, to debating about The Prestige (if you haven't watched it yet, I suggest you do, right now), to talking football. Of course, we learnt stuff, occasionally. If it wasn't for the guys, I would've probably died of boredom.

Oh and what would schooling life be without cf? It was great just to praise God in that small room. The scene of one acoustic guitar being drowned out by so many voices. Beautiful.

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Throughout this whole year, I've been thinking about my future. Asking myself question after question. What do I want to be in the future? What's my passion? Are my dreams logical? Reachable? Do I follow my head, or my heart? Whose advice do I listen to? Heck, do I need to listen to anyone's advice? I've got the answers to some of my many questions, but not all.

Personally, this year has been quite a roller-coaster, spiritually. I've done things I'm not proud of, I've said stuff that hurt people. And I regret it. But time and time again, grace was there, with arms stretched wide. I remember listening to By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North one night, and just breaking down in tears.

Some things are too private too be shared here, but maybe someday I will.

I'm 17, so it should go without saying that I did (or still do, maybe. idk.) have a crush on a certain someone. Hey, I'm a teenager too. I'm entitled to it!

Anyway, I've been trying to get her number. But I don't seem to have the balls to do so. It's New Year's Eve today, maybe I'll get lucky tonight. *fingers crossed* 

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There's much more to be said, I'm sure. But my exhausted brain is shutting itself down.

It's 3. 20 right now. As I said, time flies.

And so again I say, what a year it has been. Phew.

Good riddance. Roll on 2014!

EDIT: Found this just now, and thought I'd share it.

Whether or not our year was, in our eyes, a year of victories or a year with testing times, I think it is important first and foremost to thank God for bringing us right through to this moment. To shake off our limitations of what has been and striving for what is ahead is something that long has been emphasised in the word of God.

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The Narrative - Winter's Coming