countdown

3 wonderful souls have taken the opportunity of not allowing me to go to bed in order to count down to 2014 with them. So in order to kill time, here's a playlist for your countdown to the new year.

1. Charlie Lim - Pedestal

2. Yellowcard - Hang You Up

3. Elenowen - Save Me

4. The Narrative - Fade

5. Snow Patrol - Run

6. A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

7. The Honey Trees - Orchard

Enjoy!

2013

As of now, it is 1. 45 in the morning of the last day of 2013.

The last day of 2013. Wow. Time sure does fly.

And what a year it has been. Phew.

So this is me, recollecting memories. Do bear with me.

~

Early this year, this blog was birthed. It was meant to be a place to pen down my thoughts, my frustrations, and my jiwang-ness. Not much has changed, though I have to say I haven't been writing with much honesty. More on that some other time.

"SPM year wei." "Gee thanks, didn't know."

Ahhh spm. Marks the last year of high school (unless you decide to do stpm of course). Didn't feel the stress till very late. A little too late maybe. Anyway, I think I could say I've done my best. We'll just wait for next year.

That said, my last year of high school was fun. In class it was all about laughing like retards, to debating about The Prestige (if you haven't watched it yet, I suggest you do, right now), to talking football. Of course, we learnt stuff, occasionally. If it wasn't for the guys, I would've probably died of boredom.

Oh and what would schooling life be without cf? It was great just to praise God in that small room. The scene of one acoustic guitar being drowned out by so many voices. Beautiful.

~

Throughout this whole year, I've been thinking about my future. Asking myself question after question. What do I want to be in the future? What's my passion? Are my dreams logical? Reachable? Do I follow my head, or my heart? Whose advice do I listen to? Heck, do I need to listen to anyone's advice? I've got the answers to some of my many questions, but not all.

Personally, this year has been quite a roller-coaster, spiritually. I've done things I'm not proud of, I've said stuff that hurt people. And I regret it. But time and time again, grace was there, with arms stretched wide. I remember listening to By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North one night, and just breaking down in tears.

Some things are too private too be shared here, but maybe someday I will.

I'm 17, so it should go without saying that I did (or still do, maybe. idk.) have a crush on a certain someone. Hey, I'm a teenager too. I'm entitled to it!

Anyway, I've been trying to get her number. But I don't seem to have the balls to do so. It's New Year's Eve today, maybe I'll get lucky tonight. *fingers crossed* 

~

There's much more to be said, I'm sure. But my exhausted brain is shutting itself down.

It's 3. 20 right now. As I said, time flies.

And so again I say, what a year it has been. Phew.

Good riddance. Roll on 2014!

EDIT: Found this just now, and thought I'd share it.

Whether or not our year was, in our eyes, a year of victories or a year with testing times, I think it is important first and foremost to thank God for bringing us right through to this moment. To shake off our limitations of what has been and striving for what is ahead is something that long has been emphasised in the word of God.

~

The Narrative - Winter's Coming

life lines

Our friendship could be likened to perpendicular lines.

For only one brief moment, do we cross paths. And in that short time, memories are forged. Memories of laughing to the point of tears; of screaming our lungs out to the lyrics of songs.

Then, we move on. But not as if nothing happened. No.

We will always have the memories. We will always remember that at one point in life, our lives coincided. Let's call that our intersection point.

And as stated, we move on. We might meet again. Maybe not.

Ah well. Better to have met than not at all.

Better perpendicular than parallel I suppose.

~

The Narrative - Waiting Room

villa del refugio

Quote of the day!

"The enemy's best weapon against Christians... is other Christians."

Hmm.. Food for thought.

I think the key is to forgive constantly. We're all human. We make mistakes etc.
I myself am still learning how to be more understanding, patient, and forgiving.

Much to learn.

Godspeed!

~

Phil Wickham - Carry My Soul

after goodbye

The year is nearly over. Our next adventure beckons.

And I can't help but wonder, as we journey down different paths. Will you miss me?

Have I done enough to earn my own pedestal in your heart?

Or will I be just another familiar face?

Will you miss me? Cause I will miss you. Greatly.

Heck, I miss you already.

~

Jimmy Eat World - 23

have heart, my dear

I can spend the next few days reminiscing about us. 

Trudging down memory lane day after day.

I can waste the day imagining how things would have been like, 

had I gathered enough courage..

The what ifs, the what could've beens.


~

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.