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i am the liar.

i am the addict.

i am the wicked. 

i am the hypocrite.

i am the pointed fingers.

i am the unbeliever.

i am the prodigal son.

i am the pharisee.

i am the adulterous wife.

i am the unfaithful bride.

crucify me.

daily, crucify me.

~

anberlin - change the world (lost ones)

continuum

hey hello there have we met your eyes look familiar your smile peculiar i could have sworn i met you in another life could have sworn i kissed those lips in another reality of time and space can i have your number can i have your attention can i have your hands can i have your heart here's mine take it i gladly give it just go easy only go easy on me here is my sweet surrender here is my undivided attention hey hello there i've been expecting you hey hello there i've been waiting for long for this. 

for you.

~

sleeping at last - neptune

2017

if i were to sum up this year, i'd say that this year has been like a really deep, long, heaving sigh.

a sigh with notes of grief and gratitude. a sigh that brings back sharp yet familiar pangs but also nostalgia-induced smiles. a sigh that comes with the hold and the release. a breath so deep, it hurts. bitter and sweet, all at once.

or i'd say that this has been a year full of tears. 

it's been a really long year. but oh how the time has flown. oh how the year has passed.

this year has been one that i wanted to hate, but couldn't; yet when i wanted to like it, i couldn't help but hate it.

so, so bittersweet.

but time goes on, and the next year must come. as bittersweet as 2017 has been, i know 2018 is a fresh invitation to trust You and to taste a new flavor and dimension of Your goodness.

so bring on 2018. His grace is never going to run out this year, the same way it never has every year.